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[limbical]

That's a relief. They tend to heal pretty fast for me.

[He's been lucky so far with Cloud, but eventually he's sure Sylvian's whims will come into play in due time.

He gasps, eye widening as he practically feels himself riding over Cloud's thrust. Fuck, that feels good.]

Mm. [Daan blushes more fiercely at that, sliding a hand up to cup Cloud's cheek.] You're so good to me, Cloud.

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[ cloud's hips raise off of the bed, propelling upwards -- he fucks right into daan, determined to send him spiraling. ]

...You deserve that. [ another thrust, this one more brutal than the last. ] Someone who's good to you...

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Ah--!

[After the first round, Daan has been left more sensitive. That along with Cloud's sheer strength fucking into him strikes true, sending blinding pleasure up his spine.

Daan braces himself against Cloud's chest, as if all he can do is just fo along with it now.

Deserve. That again. It's not surprising to hear Cloud say it, but still doesn't fit right. Not that he doesn't... want it to, but that he can't quite see what Cloud sees. Daan bites his lower lip, closing his eye for a moment, trying to even himself out at least mentally.]

Cloud...

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[ he relishes every little noise he manages to pry from daan’s throat; his hips pivot up more frequently, more rhythmically, until he’s thrusting right up into daan at an even and punishing pace. cloud’s mouth catches on the beginnings of a moan. ]

Need you so bad, Daan…

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Fuck, fuck.

[He can't think, he can't do anything but take it, and it's so good. Daan's fingers curl tighter into Cloud's shoulders, and he looks down at him, brows knitted.]

Want-- want to be good for you.

[Daan's voice is strained, desperate, and honest, like a confession. With it being said, Daan chokes on a sound, suddenly finding himself squeezing around Cloud's cock, coming untouched this time.]

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[ it’s too much. daan clenches around him, taut and needy, and cloud’s back rises from the bed — only for him to grip daan by the shoulders, flipping him over so that he can rut into him through the shockwave of his own orgasm. ]

You are, [ he croaks into his ear, the words crescendoing into an unabashed moan. ] you’re so much more than you realize…

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[Abruptly he's on his back from the sheer force of Cloud's strength, and Daan gasps, hooking an arm around Cloud's neck.

His breath hitches, Daan turning his head to kiss Cloud fervently. Not deep or long, just brief bit needy kisses.]

And you-- you too. Even if you don't think so.

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[ he loses himself inside of daan, groaning shamelessly as he fills him to the brim. eventually, cloud lays against him, arms wrapped him around possessively. he pulls out bit by bit. ]

…Mm. [ another kiss, this one far deeper than the last, stretching out until he can’t breathe. ] Still ok?

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[Another gasp, this time at feeling Cloud releasing inside of him. Slowly, he sighs, content to settle in his arms and simply press his body against Cloud's.

After he's done sighing into the kiss, Daan leaves another kiss to his chin.]

Yeah. [Daan affectionately ruffles his hair.] You?

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…Yeah. [ his gaze lingers on daan’s face, eyes teeming with warmth; the faintest shades of pink color his cheeks. ] …Better than okay.

[ a silence passes. ]

You’ve… changed. Since the first few times.

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[There's a pause from Daan, his fingers stroking down Cloud's cheek.]

In what way?

[And in some ways Cloud has as well, he thinks to himself.]

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You’re… I don’t know…

[ more affectionate. honest. comfortable. sweet. willing. ]

…More yourself.

[ a beat. ]

I like that.

[ “i like you.” ]

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[It makes him think, briefly, of how Cloud expressed that he felt more like himself around Daan. Back then, he didn't entirely understand, but it's starting to reveal itself.

And maybe Daan is finding he can be more himself with Cloud in turn.]

I feel... safe with you.

[Perhaps that's what it is. That he wouldn't be judged for not keeping up appearances, remembering propriety, that sort of thing.]

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[ cloud's fingers trace the outline of his jaw, cupping his cheek. ]

Good.

[ he deserved that. he always did. ]

I want that for you.

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[Closing his eye, Daan leans into Cloud's hand, letting out a content sigh.]

It's weird. [Daan places a hand over Cloud's.] Not because of you, just... in general.

[He's been guarded for most of his life. He's had to be, and he can't-- he really can't remember letting it slip for too long.

It's starting to feel more natural with Cloud.]

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…Yeah. I get it. Trust me.

[ it was all so incredibly foreign to him — he could hardly parse it. ]

…It’ll get easier. And I’m not… I’m not going anywhere, so…

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[Ah. That-- yeah. Hearing that sinks into him, and Daan finds himself embracing Cloud as fiercely as he can. Daan lets out a shudder, then nods slowly.]

It's... also frightening. To think of potentially losing this.

[Losing you.]

So don't do anything too foolish.

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[ “losing this”—

what is this, he wants to ask. what we have, what we can’t leave behind, what we keep coming back to—

cloud holds him tightly. ]

…Right back at you, doc.

[ … ]

…I want you around — with me.

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[Daan has known for awhile now what this is, what's developing here. But he knows he was going to let it take its course the moment Daan reached out to make his apology, that Cloud forgave him for his lashing out and cruelty. Through all that, through all of his misery and Daan's warning of his potential future, Cloud has stayed. Determined, protective, and kind. Sometimes a brat, sometimes a bastard, but still nevertheless at the heart of it he's been good to Daan.

He kisses Cloud's fingers gently.]

Well, like I said before, you're stuck with me.

So you'll get your wish.

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Daan.

[ it’s said softly — quietly, before the silence passes back and forth between them, and cloud finally works up the courage to ask: ]

…The sadness you felt before. Is it… is it still like that?

[ “are you any happier now — have i made you happier at all?” ]

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I still feel grief, and loss. But it... isn't as prevalent. Less like have a gaping hole in my chest, less like I'm walking down a tunnel getting only darker and darker.

It's there, but it's not all that I have. You know?

[He still despises the resort and what it stands for. He hates how it feels like it's done nothing but toy with him, but he's also grateful for having Marina and Cloud so near and dear to him. Two very different kinds of affections he holds for them.]

I'd be in a bad way if I didn't have you and Marina. Not to put any kind of pressure on you two.

[But given an inch, and he will have dependency for a mile. Elise gave him just a hint of affection, and he devoted himself to her.

Thus, his sense of loyalty runs deep.]

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[ cloud listens, attentive, understanding — before a hand drifts towards daan’s jaw, folding over his cheek. ]

…Do you—

Do you have any hope for yourself?

[ he wants so desperately for the answer to be yes. ]

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I... don't know.

[He knows that isn't the answer that Cloud probably wants to hear, but Daan doesn't want to lie to him either.]

I think... maybe I'm scared of the future. Not knowing what's going to happen. But I almost prefer that than just accepting whatever it was Olivia saw became of me.

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Daan…

[ if anyone knows what it means to fight fate — it’s him. ]

No matter what happens… I’m going to try and save you.

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I know.

[That much he can say more confidently, a faint smile forming.]

I know that... no matter what happens, you'll put your all into it. To help me.