[Daan has known for awhile now what this is, what's developing here. But he knows he was going to let it take its course the moment Daan reached out to make his apology, that Cloud forgave him for his lashing out and cruelty. Through all that, through all of his misery and Daan's warning of his potential future, Cloud has stayed. Determined, protective, and kind. Sometimes a brat, sometimes a bastard, but still nevertheless at the heart of it he's been good to Daan.
I still feel grief, and loss. But it... isn't as prevalent. Less like have a gaping hole in my chest, less like I'm walking down a tunnel getting only darker and darker.
It's there, but it's not all that I have. You know?
[He still despises the resort and what it stands for. He hates how it feels like it's done nothing but toy with him, but he's also grateful for having Marina and Cloud so near and dear to him. Two very different kinds of affections he holds for them.]
I'd be in a bad way if I didn't have you and Marina. Not to put any kind of pressure on you two.
[But given an inch, and he will have dependency for a mile. Elise gave him just a hint of affection, and he devoted himself to her.
[He knows that isn't the answer that Cloud probably wants to hear, but Daan doesn't want to lie to him either.]
I think... maybe I'm scared of the future. Not knowing what's going to happen. But I almost prefer that than just accepting whatever it was Olivia saw became of me.
[It feels nice, fingers brushing through his hair. Even something so simple makes him feel more at ease and comforted. It also makes him question things he doesn't feel prepared to question.
It's too easy to think of his own flaws and shortcomings -- but he tries not to. Not right now.]
[ cloud shifts a bit, body weight hovering over him -- he buries his mouth into the crook of daan's neck, administering easy, gentle kisses that trail down to his chest. one hand slides down his jaw. ]
[While bites and bruises make him cry out and squirm under Cloud, the sweeter, delicate kisses make him shiver with delight, face blushing immediately. He raises a hand, lightly ruffling Cloud's hair.]
Talking a whole lot about how good I am, but you're awfully giving, too.
[ the kisses continue to linger downwards, sweeping across daan's chest, traveling down to his abdomen. cloud's lips ghost over the head of his cock; he licks at its tip teasingly. ]
...You look good when you blush. [ he remarks, admiring him from above, warmth pricking at the edges of his voice. ]
Ah-- [It hardly takes much for him to get hard again, even just under the briefest contact from Cloud's lips and tongue. The silky heat from it warms him up, hips twitching.
Daan gently tweaks Cloud's ear at the comment.]
Then you must be just pleased with yourself whenever you make me blush, huh?
[ murmured before wrapping his fingers around the base of his cock and taking him into his mouth, head bobbing downwards as swallows him bit by bit. cloud comes back up for air, just for a moment— ]
Just like you are right now… it suits you.
[ and then he descends again, lips puckering around daan’s length before he’s back at it. ]
[It's a beautiful sight, watching Cloud start to swallow him down. Those pretty lips are working, and stunning eyes gazing up at him. What's nearly unbearable is how gently Cloud is suddenly treating him, a stark contrast from their first round. Daan is gasping, reaching to rest his hand on Cloud's head; not to push him or demand anything, just to leave it there.]
[ maybe he is-- and that's exactly how he wants it. cloud focuses on working down to the base of his cock, pushing himself beyond his limits; heat pricks at his eyes, damp and overwhelming.
once he's taken the entirety of him into his mouth's, cloud shoulders rise and fall as he determinedly draws him into measured motions. he doesn't stop, even as his jaw clicks, even as the fullness borders on being all too much. ]
[Cloud isn't stopping. Of course he isn't; he's a man on a mission, after all. Committed to, exactly, spoiling Daan. It's such a strange thing to still experience; he knows the bruises, the stings on his skin and to enjoy them. To know they're from Cloud, marking him. But this, to be so thoroughly tended to--]
Cloud. Cloud...
[The bruises are, curiously, starting to fade and heal from Daan's skin. The aches fade, and he doesn't notice right at the moment, too deep into enjoying that mouth working away on his cock.]
[ too full. too much. and yet his ears twitch, tantalized by the sound of cloud's name on his mouth -- a pitifully saccharine thing. daan's flesh tastes of salt, and it clings to his tongue, enveloping his mouth as he groans against his cock.
two hands grip at daan's hips for purchase -- and his pace quickens, breath in suspension as he teeters along the edge of his own limitations. but he doesn't intend on stopping until daan comes. ]
[He continues repeating Cloud's name, quickly becoming breathless as he goes. The urge to jerk himself into that hot mouth is there, but the hands on his hips keep him down. Instead, he's at Cloud's wonderful mercy, overwhelming and wonderful and prickling his eye.
Finally, he gasps and shudders under Cloud, lips trembling as he comes for the third time so far. His back arches, fingers gently massaging into Cloud's scalp.
A tear rolls down his cheek; it's terribly vulnerable, as it always is, but Daan has also begun to learn that he can let that happen with Cloud. He can afford to. Maybe, for a change, he's safe.]
[ cloud pulls back, cum spraying across his face in viscous ropes — it dribbles down his jaw, and he swallows the rest crudely before his gaze intertwines with daan’s.
gradually, he crawls onto him, a hand framing his face; it thumbs that tear away. ]
[Ah. Now there's a sight to behold. It's enough that his cock stays hard as he admires the look of it.
Honestly, he'd almost forgotten about the tear for a moment until Cloud brushes it off.]
...Yeah. I think so.
[No frantic statement to ascertain that he's fine when he's not. But truthfully -- yes, in this moment, he does actually feel okay. And he's really, actually safe to feel as he does right now.
He treasures it. Treasures Cloud.]
Fuck, you look good like that, though. [Daan is definitely going to remember that.]
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what is this, he wants to ask. what we have, what we can’t leave behind, what we keep coming back to—
cloud holds him tightly. ]
…Right back at you, doc.
[ … ]
…I want you around — with me.
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He kisses Cloud's fingers gently.]
Well, like I said before, you're stuck with me.
So you'll get your wish.
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[ it’s said softly — quietly, before the silence passes back and forth between them, and cloud finally works up the courage to ask: ]
…The sadness you felt before. Is it… is it still like that?
[ “are you any happier now — have i made you happier at all?” ]
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It's there, but it's not all that I have. You know?
[He still despises the resort and what it stands for. He hates how it feels like it's done nothing but toy with him, but he's also grateful for having Marina and Cloud so near and dear to him. Two very different kinds of affections he holds for them.]
I'd be in a bad way if I didn't have you and Marina. Not to put any kind of pressure on you two.
[But given an inch, and he will have dependency for a mile. Elise gave him just a hint of affection, and he devoted himself to her.
Thus, his sense of loyalty runs deep.]
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…Do you—
Do you have any hope for yourself?
[ he wants so desperately for the answer to be yes. ]
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[He knows that isn't the answer that Cloud probably wants to hear, but Daan doesn't want to lie to him either.]
I think... maybe I'm scared of the future. Not knowing what's going to happen. But I almost prefer that than just accepting whatever it was Olivia saw became of me.
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[ if anyone knows what it means to fight fate — it’s him. ]
No matter what happens… I’m going to try and save you.
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[That much he can say more confidently, a faint smile forming.]
I know that... no matter what happens, you'll put your all into it. To help me.
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[ a thumb glides across his cheek, its touch warm and feather light. ]
Even if you don’t think so, I do.
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I know you do, Cloud.
It's... hard for me to see what you see. I wish I could give you a better answer.
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[ fingers thread through tufts of his hair, the gesture brisk and benign. ]
You've... done a lot of good. Whether you realize it or not.
[ for other people. for me. ]
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It's too easy to think of his own flaws and shortcomings -- but he tries not to. Not right now.]
I'm trying.
But I guess... I need the reminder.
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I can give you one.
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Talking a whole lot about how good I am, but you're awfully giving, too.
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...You look good when you blush. [ he remarks, admiring him from above, warmth pricking at the edges of his voice. ]
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Daan gently tweaks Cloud's ear at the comment.]
Then you must be just pleased with yourself whenever you make me blush, huh?
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[ murmured before wrapping his fingers around the base of his cock and taking him into his mouth, head bobbing downwards as swallows him bit by bit. cloud comes back up for air, just for a moment— ]
Just like you are right now… it suits you.
[ and then he descends again, lips puckering around daan’s length before he’s back at it. ]
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Fuck, Cloud...
Told you-- you're spoiling me.
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once he's taken the entirety of him into his mouth's, cloud shoulders rise and fall as he determinedly draws him into measured motions. he doesn't stop, even as his jaw clicks, even as the fullness borders on being all too much. ]
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[Cloud isn't stopping. Of course he isn't; he's a man on a mission, after all. Committed to, exactly, spoiling Daan. It's such a strange thing to still experience; he knows the bruises, the stings on his skin and to enjoy them. To know they're from Cloud, marking him. But this, to be so thoroughly tended to--]
Cloud. Cloud...
[The bruises are, curiously, starting to fade and heal from Daan's skin. The aches fade, and he doesn't notice right at the moment, too deep into enjoying that mouth working away on his cock.]
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two hands grip at daan's hips for purchase -- and his pace quickens, breath in suspension as he teeters along the edge of his own limitations. but he doesn't intend on stopping until daan comes. ]
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Finally, he gasps and shudders under Cloud, lips trembling as he comes for the third time so far. His back arches, fingers gently massaging into Cloud's scalp.
A tear rolls down his cheek; it's terribly vulnerable, as it always is, but Daan has also begun to learn that he can let that happen with Cloud. He can afford to. Maybe, for a change, he's safe.]
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gradually, he crawls onto him, a hand framing his face; it thumbs that tear away. ]
…You okay?
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Honestly, he'd almost forgotten about the tear for a moment until Cloud brushes it off.]
...Yeah. I think so.
[No frantic statement to ascertain that he's fine when he's not. But truthfully -- yes, in this moment, he does actually feel okay. And he's really, actually safe to feel as he does right now.
He treasures it. Treasures Cloud.]
Fuck, you look good like that, though. [Daan is definitely going to remember that.]
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[ his fingers smooth down his cheek, his touch delicate in a way that he’d reserved only for daan. ]
…Guess you’ll just have to see me like this more often, then. [ the corners of his lips quirk up, the slightest bit mischievous. ]
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